Self-Healing Saved My Sanity

About two years ago, I went through an intense emotional period that was triggered by betrayal from another person. It shocked me. I didn’t see this coming, but now realize it was another shift in my reality, perception and growth. 

Let me share what happened. 

The penny dropped one day when a certain person from my inner circle treated me badly, quite rudely. It was like a slap in the face. And this slap woke me up on many levels. The realization came to me hard that this person had never really treated me well, but I was patient with them. Making excuses for their behaviour and continuing to love them. I thought this is what love does. 

My close relationship with them had developed over many years, and during that time I gave and cared for them thinking I was in a mutually-inspired relationship. 

But that one final act of meanness was the final straw that jolted through me. All these feelings and memories came rushing through me - it was so intense. It was like a tidal wave hitting me from behind and rushing through my body.

The harsh realization that they had never cared for me like I did for them. The reciprocity was not there. 

I felt used and deeply hurt. And naive. 

What followed was about four days of intense pain and emotional turmoil that ended in sleepless nights, painful processing, confusion and tears. I went through so many emotions like great anger, hopelessness, questioning love. 

On the second day, some voice inside me said I needed to find my balance and harmony again in the midst of this storm. It was the only way to come out of this. And so for a few days more I pulled on every healing tool I had. 

I am sure you have been through emotional turmoil before and rational thinking is not what occurs. It’s quite the opposite, thus I want to share what I did to calm myself down, make a decision about this relationship and find peace again. I hope this helps you, too. 

SELF-HEALING TOOLS
As an energy healer, I cleanse and illuminate my energy field constantly. One of the methods I use that I just love, and feel immediate relief from, is shedding unwanted energy from my body. 

I do this in two ways, but the way that is most cathartic is dumping large amounts of energy into a willing Mother Earth (I ask her permission first.) I find this works best if I am lying down. And boy, did I shed static vibrations from parts of me that had held my pain from this relationship over time. Pain points I did not know I had. 

After shedding this energy for about two days, I was starting to feel lighter, more calm. We not only carry emotional energy in our body but also that of others, too. Extracting these is vital for our happiness, higher frequency and spiritual evolution. 

After this cleanse, I had to work on my mind, then my emotions to find harmony and a way I could live with this person who remained in my inner circle, albeit at a healthy distance that I created. 

I decided that discernment without emotions was needed. I need to build up healthy boundaries around friendship that did not stem from bitterness or mistrust; rather, from a sense of self love and what was best for me. I could be cordial with this person, but not allow them into the inner sanctions of my being. They lost that right.

Emotionally, I told myself I was loving this person from a true place. In fact, I stopped blaming them for their behaviour and realized that is who they are and what happened is what happened, and to leave that behind because I had developed clear energetic boundaries that felt good. There was no need to mistrust love or relationships. 

ALL ABOUT LOVE
What happened next was I created a new level of loving with myself and others. I was so warmed by the love of those around me who really cared for me. I cherished these people so much more as I learned about love on another level. 

This entire act became a lesson in self love. It softened me, expanded me and gave me new hope for experiencing love in new ways. I am so grateful for this painful experience to teach me more about myself. 

Those days showed me that healing doesn’t happen in one place. I had to tend to my energy, my emotions, my mind, and my body with each layer asking for care in its own way. That understanding is what shaped The Year of Becoming Journey. It grew from real moments like this, where learning to stay connected to all parts of yourself becomes essential.

If you’d like to learn more about the journey, you can explore it here. The door is open for those who feel called to this work. https://www.kellyedmonds.com/journey 

QUESTION : Have you ever experienced such an emotional time? How did you help yourself through it to come out the other side?